I don't remember where I saw the term 'Keyboard Warrior', but I liked it. That's what it feels like so much of the time - like I'm fighting: with technology, some snafu in the plotline or with just arguing with myself. I'd adjusted to the solitude and isolation. I put my shoulder to the proverbial wheel, and pushed forward.
Then Santa brought me a wonderful Christmas present - a publishing contract. And not for just one book, but a series of five! After years of rejection letters and emails, I had done it. I had shown promise to an editor. So now all I had to do, I thought in my innocence, was work with an editor to tweak the first book, and wait until it was released.
Silly me!
I wrestled with technology and won the reformatting battle. The CAIS (Cover Art Information Sheet - it took me about a day and a half to figure that out) and I skirmished for a week or so. However, I beat it. I filled out the author's information questionnaire and even managed to get one or two pretty good pictures. Of course, I took over a hundred - so there was bound to be one or two . . .
Then I joined the authors' group, when I turned tail and bid a hasty retreat. There were so many of them. I've been living in a virtual vacuum for years, and now I felt like I was in Grand Central Station at rush hour. The first week I worried my brain would implode!
True story - a pilot spotted a lone Japanese soldier while flying over a remote Indonesian island - in 1974. The soldier was taken in custody on December 18th, 1974. He came out without a fight when a specially trained group of Indonesian soldiers surrounded his hut and sang the Japanese anthem.
The trouble was he was he'd been raised in Taiwan when it was a Japanese dependency, so he identified with Japan. After several weeks of debate over where he belonged, he was returned to Taiwan, where he died lonely and confused, five years later.
I know just how he must have felt being sent to a country no longer under Japan rule, to a wife who'd remarried twenty years before and a son he didn't know he had. I've been plunged into a new world of technology, instant gratification and 'social networking', and I'm barely treading water.
Thankful goodness, my editor threw me a life preserver in the form of another author. Slowly, kicking and screaming, he's dragging me into the deep end of the pool. The thing is I trust him not to let me drown.
And for that, I thank them both, but especially Bill.
Remember you're never alone. You have all those voices in your head to keep you company. It's a perk of being an author. As for drowning, I won't let you.
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